Saturday, December 19, 2009

two thousand and nine.

I'm ready to say bye bye to '09.

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us..." Dickens

I definitely had a growth spurt this year.

From being Content. Married. Workaholic. School-aholic.

And then all of a sudden, not being able to get somebody else out of my head.

I was having dreams about him.

It was then that I became aware of what my life, my love, my everything was lacking.

And there was no turning back.

My best friend stole my heart.

& we risked it all....

And it definitely came with it's hardship.

Like I was Hester Prynne, with a scarlet A across my chest.

It wasn't easy living on my own.

It wasn't easy hearing the whispers of those that were once my friends.

Ken and I were definitely alienated at times.


It wasn't easy when we lost our baby, also.



All these changes definitely put myself through a roller coaster ride.

And only led to...

A new perspective.

A new start.

Hello, 2010.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

obliterated.

"her heart is obliterated. i'm trying to travel through but it's like moving mountains. it's like moving mountains. hey, but i keep climbing and hoping things would change. then the sky turns gray and the water from the rain washes progress away..."

most days, i believe i'm suppose to live my life alone.

i have a big heart. but i have a bigger guard.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

oscar wilde.

"it is absurb to divide people into good or bad. people are either charming or tedious."

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

washignton.

i'm feeling like seattle weather.