drop the world.

"I got ice in my veins, blood in my eyes
Hate in my heart, love in my mind
I seen nights full of pain, days of the same
You keep the sunshine, save me the rain
I search but never find, hurt but never cry
I work and forever try, but I’m cursed, so never mind
And it’s worse, but better times seem further and beyond
The top gets higher the more that I climb
The spot gets smaller, and I get bigger
Tryna get into where I fit in, no room for a n*gga
But soon for a n*gga it be on, mu’f*cka
‘Cause all the bullshit, it made me strong, mu’f*cka"
- Lil Wayne

miss.

i'm just misunderstood & unwilling to apologize for their assumptions.

today is.

cleaning out my closet day.

dear first love,

thank you for making it so easy for me to let loved ones go.

i had a lot of practice with you.

sincerely,

sherri ann

trust.

I'm having this overwhelming sense of revulsion.

Just from knowing the tainted innocence of a man I don't care to know. I guess I just can't accept how two people who have been in a relationship for years --- find themselves keeping secrets of dishonesty or unfaithfulness from each other. Especially those that decide to marry.

I guess I don't understand how it kills someone to lie to their loved one... but they keep doing it yet feel as if she/he doesn't deserve it. ---> in reference to usher's "fooling around."

I admit that I am married but we separated long before I could start lying to him. Why? Because I truly loved him enough to let him go... and not "play games" or "play pretend." He deserves more than that from me. From anyone. People deserve better than that.

I would feel differently if a man or woman slips and they tell their partners, the truth... and they work it out from there but it's just not fair for one person to know what they've done and let the other person believe they're the ones in fault when issues arise.

If people really did love each other, they would be down. No matter what. Down to move on from all the bullshit that may tempt human nature. But you got to be down with telling the real.

And just knowing what I've seen and heard from others....

I can't believe I'm letting it get the best of me right now.

"i'm sorry for blaming you...

for everything i just couldn't do.

and i've hurt myself by hurting you."

sometimes it's just easier pointing fingers.

i have a big ego.

and my pride, sometimes, get's the best of me.