stuck in reverse.

maybe it's the other way around.

maybe it's not that i want to let go of all responsibilities

but that i need to start being responsible.

i feel defeated.

it's like i'm fifteen all over again,

and i don't know a damn thing.

i want to be a crab, a turtle, a...

and just hide inside of my shell.

i want to be invisible.

i don't want these responsibilities.

i'm not ready.

i'm still not ready...

H.A.T.E.U. - MC

"sorry, the frustration's got me feeling awake.

and i just keep having one last thing to say."

a survivor.

i can't believe i almost gave in.

against what i am about.

it might takes forever and a year to be where i wanna be.

but i will eventually get there.

tell me it was all a dream.

i was pregnant for three months.

november 5th, we lost our baby.

it was definitely my worst fear.

doctor's results after testing: "you're either in the middle of a miscarriage or you're having an ectopic pregnancy."

in other words, "you're either in the middle of your worst fear or you're having something even worst."

i am so over you, retail.

you're on the list of bad relationships.

heart.

i love dating my best friend.

he's definitely something else.